I can't do this anymore. I was a NEET for a year, and it was one of the most depressing moments of my life. I tried to kill myself during that time. Then, a year later, decided to come back and try to finish high school. It didn't work either. I just couldn't bring myself to care, to socialize. Got diagnosed with autism. When I was 16-17 I tried having friends and going on dates, just to isolate myself no long after. I can't even keep up with online friends/dating. I try to be normal, I try to find things that give me a sense of fulfilment, from trying to be a normalfag to having hobbies (art, literature, anime, compsci, you name it.) I just want to go back to NEETdom and never see anyone again. Does anyone else feels as hopeless as I am now? I'm not some virgin neet who will fit in with most of imageboard culture, but I'm definitely too autistic to fit with normal, well-adjusted, people.
I've been there, anon. Hang in there. A lot of normals are self destructive and self loathing. It's not as easy as it looks, they aren't as happy as they look. Sometimes they find it refreshing to meet someone who doesn't give a shit about common social expectations. They can have a funny way of showing it, though. I think it scares them.
I don't know if that helps you feel better, but it's something I discovered a while ago.
That definitely helps, anon. Thank you. Have a good night/day.
Worse thing you can do is force things OP. Do what you enjoy and if you have The time, The ability or the mental wellness to what you want, Do it. Being a normalfag isn't too healthy due to the fast paced "gimme dat" nature of that society and forcing yourself on an imageboard for instant satisfaction of companionship or whatever void you need filled(Even though your sure you can't fit in i assume) Isnt too good either. if you NEED something, (Say, friendship) You wont get it. But slowly working at something you want although painful and slow as that may sound, Will work out.
Believe or not friend that's exactly the same thing I went through, went neet my last 2 years of hs, tried to go back but failed badly
I'm going to be honest with you anon, as someone far on the other side it doesn't get better, not before it gets a lot worse