>>2013> Fugged yourself how?
I've basically been shadowbanned for being a POS
> Sounds like schizophrenia. Perhaps your brain is telling you that your parents hate you even though they love you very much.
I've thought about schizophrenia, but I'm not one to self diagnose. My counselor hasn't suggested anything other than psychosis, but we've only had 5 sessions at this point.
They love me, but I feel like it's a remorseful love, like it's their job to love me at this point. They've said things like "I'll love you no matter what happens, anon" or "I will always love you, anon".
>If by "way out" you mean being an hero, please don't. There are better ways of coping with your reality then just ending it.
I don't want to commit sudoku, I want to improov and live the life I wanted as a young teen.
> Perhaps whatever your dealing with can be treated properly, if you can't afford proper treatment you can take high levels of omega 3 (either through fish oil pills or food) regularly, eating healthy, and reducing stress
I'm not opposed to trying out some supplements, I'd like to think my diet is pretty stable/healthy. I've been eating lots of home cooked meals, but that might not exactly meat healthy. Fortunately, I'm able to talk to a counselor and now a psychiatrist.
> Eh, bits of it, parts might be true, parts of it might be your brain misreading things
Maybe so, I find it hard to force myself to look at things in a different light when there are clues all around me. At least that's what I consider them...
> Welcome to 22chan. And that's true. those site's aren't too secure. Consider investing in a VPN, (not on 22, just when browsing other sites) and this site here >>>/t/264 should led to other security measures you can take
Thanks for the warm welcome, anon. I like to use the free version hotspot shield, but maybe that's a complete sham. I'll check out that link.
>What do you mean by this OP? Anyway, it could be your family and frens want to kill you, but consider treating yourself with fish oils and such to rule out any possibility that it could be severe mental illness before doing something rash. i wish you the best of luck OP.
It seems like people might be trying to tell me something for shids and giggles if they text me or what have you at a specific time.
But it gets worse than shids and giggles. For example, a couple of nights ago a car pulled up within eye sight of my window at around 9:15 pm. They turned on their emergency lights and pulled over. No one stepped out of the car, not that I could see atleast, just sitting there idle. Then at 9:19 pm, it speeds off as if nothing happened. The next afternoon, I found that my gate was missing a couple of screws, causing it to swing open.
I don't know how to see this as anything other than a threat. Do you see what I'm saying? Or am I talking bullshid?